The last couple of weekends, I have been lucky enough to attend two bridal showers held by my aunts and cousins. These are events I have been looking forward to, almost as much as the wedding itself.  I think it's because the showers make it seem very real, and remind me that the wedding is now only a short time away.

My aunts went all-out for these showers, and I am so grateful to them for making the days so special. But as I was sitting there, soaking it all in, the entire thing seemed so surreal to me. It was like a dream.  I guess that's what happens when you've waited for something for so long, and then it actually comes to pass.

I've actually gone back and read the cards and looked at the gifts, just to remind myself that those showers really happened.  It's not that I don't remember them. I could recall them for you play-by-play, it's just that it seems like I was watching from a distance, not actually in the thick of things. It also seemed like those afternoons passed all too quickly.

I find myself wondering if this is how my wedding day, itself, will be.  I hope not. I hope I'm able to "be in the moment" as much as possible and savor everything that happens. I hope time passes slowly, and doesn't fly by. But everything everyone has told me about their wedding day is that it goes too quickly and is over before you know it.  On a day like that, I can't afford for it to be surreal. Instead, I want it to feel the full brunt of the reality and embrace every second of it.